Sunday, January 21, 2018

Not Perfect

I'm eating too much. I'm trying to cut out sugar and processed food. I'm not doing a perfect job of it.

My house is mostly picked up, but my kitchen floor hasn't been scrubbed in a while. I cleaned most of my bathroom, but somehow forgot the mirror.

I want to watch less TV than I do. At the very least, I want to not have another screen on while the TV is on. Stretching would be fine. Doing a mindless job like folding laundry would be fine. Just sitting and paying attention to only the TV would be fine, but that's not what I do.

I want to move and stretch more. Or maybe not more, but be more organized in what I do so that I can build on it better.

I want to be a better friend, and a better daughter. I fail. Often.

I want to be positive, but I still complain.

I'm okay with this. I'm not going to stop trying, but I can only do so much. When it comes to food, I do need to cut back a little, but my current focus is cutting the sugar and processed food. While I am not perfect there, I am making really good progress. I'm giving myself a pass on worrying about how much I'm eating at the moment. If I'm hungry, I start making worse decisions about the sugar and processed stuff, so I decided to worry about one thing at a time.

I was wondering why I'm not a better housekeeper, and while there are times that I could watch less TV, most of the time if housework doesn't happen, it's because it took too long to cook food. I can live with that. If my house is messy because I was cutting up vegetables again, it's fine.

I do want to move more and move better, but good movement is so that I can enjoy living. It needs to work for me rather than only being another task.

I am finding many ways to be more positive, to complain less, to be a better person. It takes time, and that's okay.

I have decided that I need to pursue progress, not perfection. Progress is possible, but perfection isn't. The most interesting thing to me is how obvious it is currently that I can't pursue everything, because one thing has a direct impact on the other areas of my life, so I have to choose what is more important right now.


  1. No one is perfect. It sounds like you are making some great strides towards the life you want to live however. And yes, when you trade something housekeeping-y for something else positive, I think it all works itself out in the end.

  2. I have so many of these same thoughts. I read a book by Matthew Kelly last year called "Becoming Perfectly Yourself" that was really transformational for me. The first chapter's lesson is to "measure progress" ... it makes all the difference. Am I a little better than yesterday? Did I try to be better than yesterday? My housekeeping, complaining, and food choices can all use improvement - but even if they don't, there are so many other ways that I'm progressing to make it all worth it. You're progressing - focus on the greatness of that! Remember you're fantastic - because you're a daughter of God and he's madly in love with you whether the progress is big or little.

  3. "I have decided that I need to pursue progress, not perfection." Amen, sister!

  4. Having struggled with perfectionism and scrupulosity my whole life I can relate to so much of what you are saying here. Progress and reality is so much better to focus on and has brought me so much peace in the last couple years. I think you are on the right track :)

  5. I tend to give up if I don't think I can succeed. I need to get around that mental block and work on progress. I did finally tackle a big housekeeping stumbling block for me - doing laundry weekly in a timely fashion from washing/drying/folding to putting away. Once I got passed the mental block of how HARD it was going to be and I just did it already, it was a pleasant surprise that it was easier than I thought, and I kinda take some pleasure in laundry day now.
    I've been trying to work on my eating as well. I'd been "rewarding" myself since our failed adoption with ice cream and other snacks...just overeating in general. I started keto style of eating this week and have been tracking my meals with an app, and for some reason it's been working! I've tried and failed at this exact thing for many months. No idea why NOW I'm doing well. Maybe I got fed up enough with the extra 30 lbs I've been carrying? Who knows. Either way, I need to also remember that it is progress, not perfection, that counts. So very wise.