I don't know why it is. I find some things very easy to talk about, and I probably bore my friends and family to tears with those things, and still have more to say here. Then there are the other things. You know. Things like feelings and brokenness and not being in control. Sometimes I have something inside that I would really like to talk about, but I can't seem to spit it out. I have friends that are ready and willing to be there for me the second I ask, but somehow I find it easier to bottle it up instead. If I am going to talk instead of bottling it up, the conditions have to be just right. First, it has to simmer a little. I can't simply rush into it. I can't force an opening for it, either, there has to be at least some flow in the conversation that opens it up to that. My brain will tell my mouth to talk, but my mouth won't go until the conditions are met.
And then there's blogging. I can't seem to shut up. What is my problem?
Wait. Don't answer that.