Anyway, I'm not married and there's nothing that I can do at this moment to change it. So I was thinking about the single thing, and here are my hopes for being single (besides the hope that it won't last that much longer!:))
1) I hope that I will never be a bitter spinster. I now begin to understand why it is so easy for that to happen. We women are relational people and not having deep relationships can leave us feeling unfulfilled. (I suppose that's too much of a sweeping generalization. Let's just say that's the case for those of us that do want to be married with families). I hope that this pain, no matter how short or long it is leads me to be a deeper person with more empathy with others. Maybe not just other single people, but other people with pain.
2) I hope that I will use my single time wisely. Time to grow closer to God while I depend on Him completely, time to build stronger relationships with friends. Time to improve in my profession. Time to pay off at least a small part of my crazy grad school debt.
3) I hope that I will learn to be more open to other people. I am an introvert that has a hard time letting people into my thoughts and feelings. It finally occurred to me that there would always be loneliness if I didn't let the inside out, no matter whether I was married or single. I promise I won't go spilling my guts to you if I meet you in the grocery store. I only subject my sister and my close friends to that!
Yikes! Look at where this blog is heading! Straight down the road of schmaltzy attempts at profundity. Yuck! Well, it is what it is. I will simply have to revel in the relative newness of the blog and the fact that hopefully no one's reading yet. I could just not post the entry, but if I can dump the thoughts here and not have them on my mind, so much the better. Hopefully by the time someone stumbles across this blog, the writing will improve.